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It has always seemed very strange to me that soooo many people can go through their whole life in a kind of trance. As the saying goes "They live in the land of Denial!" I visited there for about thirty years, and I must say, that when the fog finally lifted it really was a sort of relief. No more lying, covering up or denying the truth. No more delusions of the way that you wish things were, and pretending to the world that this is the way that things are. I guess it was also...
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It has always seemed very strange to me that soooo many people can go through their whole life in a kind of trance. As the saying goes "They live in the land of Denial!" I visited there for about thirty years, and I must say, that when the fog finally lifted it really was a sort of relief. No more lying, covering up or denying the truth. No more delusions of the way that you wish things were, and pretending to the world that this is the way that things are. I guess it was also saddening how much time was lost and how things could have been different if only you were conscious of them. Why do we live a life of lies? There are probably as many reasons as there are people. We live a lie for love, money, wealth, fame, security, etc, etc. We have to play the game of life the way society or our families dictate so as not to disappoint. Our whole lives revolve around pleasing others and getting them to accept us. lsn't that whole concept a lie? I've always hated lying, but now I do it on a regular basis. I see why people do it because it gets easier over time. I can barely tolerate someone who always lies to get what they want, or to make themselves seem better than they really are. lt's one thing to have someone lie to you and you aren't aware of it, and it's a whole different thing when you catch someone lying and they won't own up to it. That's pretty much lT for me. I guess that's why I have some 'stress' issues. lt takes A LOT of self-control to keep yourself from smashing someone in the mouth. I read a little saying a while ago which said "Sarcasm, because it's illegal to beat the shit out of someone!" I truly love and agree with this.