I Have a Crush on a Gay Man

I do not know what to do, I can not consult with someone I know, I decided to write here. I will post everything in detail, as it was, but I will change the names. I hope to hear the truthful advice. I will tell you in detail. So, I am 19 years old now, almost 20 (will be in a month). I am a straight guy, I like girls, but I have not had any serious relationship with them. So, a blowjob somewhere in the entrance hall, but no more. With guys... So, with my...
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I do not know what to do, I can not consult with someone I know, I decided to write here. I will post everything in detail, as it was, but I will change the names. I hope to hear the truthful advice. I will tell you in detail.

So, I am 19 years old now, almost 20 (will be in a month). I am a straight guy, I like girls, but I have not had any serious relationship with them. So, a blowjob somewhere in the entrance hall, but no more.

With guys... So, with my classmates I used to jerk off together to watch porn. And that was it.

And then I come to a completely different city. So I came to Ensk. I had a course in therapeutic massage. The master class was given by a specialist from Korea. And so I arrive and start looking for a hotel or an apartment. But here's the trouble - the hotel minimum 50 cu. e. per day. The apartment and even more expensive. Already in despair of finding anything, I returned to the station and going back, as I can't pay so much for the apartment. And here I look - there is a boy of 22-23 years old, where the apartments are offered. I approach him with already faded hope and ask about the apartment. He looked at me with an appraising glance and said:

- There is an apartment, not expensive, but not in this city, but nearby, 35 minutes by electric train.

At a fraction of the cost.