Not yet Too Far Gone

For a long time, Mathias John never considered himself an addict-but then again, that's what most addicts would say. Mathias John thrived for years as a high-functioning alcoholic. He had friends, a great job, an incredible partner-and a drinking problem. Each morning he would wake up and write in his journal about his thoughts and goals, then he would spend the rest of his day lying to his friends, his wife, and even his therapist about his alcoholic tendencies. He even lied to...
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For a long time, Mathias John never considered himself an addict-but then again, that's what most addicts would say. Mathias John thrived for years as a high-functioning alcoholic. He had friends, a great job, an incredible partner-and a drinking problem. Each morning he would wake up and write in his journal about his thoughts and goals, then he would spend the rest of his day lying to his friends, his wife, and even his therapist about his alcoholic tendencies. He even lied to himself in his writing. Then one car accident changed everything. After wrestling with the consequences of his high-functioning behavior and finally getting serious about sobriety, Mathias began to revisit his old journals. What they reveal are classic signs of an addict's mind and the mental gymnastics required to deny the reality of his situation. In this honest and unflinching examination, Mathias reflects on his own history of addiction as he recorded it himself. With the help of licensed therapist Ashley Boyd, he sets out to better understand himself, his past, and the mindset that made his high-functioning alcoholism possible. Not Too Far Gone is an intimate portrayal of the highs and lows of addiction and recovery, and a testament to the transformative power of therapy and self-reflection. In sharing his most personal thoughts and experiences, Mathias John hopes to shed light on the types of addiction many of us face and provide the kind of resource he wishes he had on his long road to recovery.